It was for the "optics" and I didn't care 'nough to say no. Next time that'll be different.
[ The giggles...he won't smile or anything, but he will squeeze her hand back. ]
I think that's what was happenin' at the end 'cept it was more like greasing the wheels and watching 'em fall off. [ ...that reminds him. ] Were you actually gonna let that snake doc test the chloroform on you?
I vote for pajamas. [ This time she doesn't laugh out loud, but she does smile wide, voice a little teasing. ]
That's one way to put it. [ Things certainly went off the rails. Especially at the end, she thinks with a small hum. ] Hmm, I would've accepted a waft for fun, but nothing more. It could've been a little hilarious if I landed on Chuuya or Joshua, but I prefer being conscious to defend myself.
[ In response, Shigaraki not so gently, but not so roughly either, bumps his weight against hers. Given the height difference he can't really shoulder bump, so this'll have to do. It's not enough to make her stumble, but it sure is something; whether it's for the pajamas or chloroform, who knows.
He's still holding her hand too, so this seems more playful than anything. ]
Too bad Beel ruined that all for them. They would've preferred anyone but him I'm sure, but he screwed that up for them too.
[ Her smile just grows at the gesture, amused at the reaction. She returns the favor by trying to lightly swing the hand she's holding in a wide arc, forward and back. ]
I guess it's lucky for me, as an apparent prime suspect. [ When she gets more votes for not being involved than actually being involved. ] Funny that he gets such a reaction though. Where was that fervor last week?
[ He goes along with the swinging since he's not entirely unfamiliar with it given Toga's everything. Not that he contributes much to it, but there's an acceptance there, the energy from it giving away to a kind of smile. ]
But she was pretty tilted this week. I guess that's what rage quitting from her looks like? [ It's said with an amused tone, but also actual thought. He's not sure what was going on with her besides a mess, which is kinda funny because he's awful. But on the other hand, he finds it a bit confusing too.
And unlike Lobelia's trial, he's not in the position to be there to poke it out of her. ]
[ Yeah, that's not a surprise. Moravia slowly drops the swinging speed back to their usual position, feeling like humming all the while. ]
Seems like it. I do like that she finally started confronting me, but it seems she decided to go a few steps farther. Was she always like that?
[ Funny, she's both amused and thoughtful on the topic of Lacus. They probably spent more time playing Mario Kart than actually talking at this point, not that it bothers her much. She's not one to delve in deeply into someone like that. ]
[ He might as well think about it now that they're on the topic. It doesn't take him long to string some thoughts together, however inaccurate they might be. ]
Well she thought that we're alike. But kinda polar opposites too? I think it was that we're both determined to make the world we wanna see. [ Which he pulls a face at because he is not making anything, just destroying, but it's easier to frame it like that.
He turns to her then, while keeping their rhythm. ]
[ Yeah, it's something she wants to sort her thoughts about as well. Might as well get it out of the way now. ]
Make the world, huh? Strange way to put it. I guess determination isn't wrong, but...hmm.
[ She actually hums out loud this time, thinking as they continue their stroll. ]
From my point of view: is it really making the world if their society is smashed so hard they can't pick up the pieces? Because that's what I'm looking for.
[ Coexistence is a pipe dream after all. If they're gone, the Vectors can live on, finally free from those who would hurt them. ]
[ He laughs at that, it reverbating to his bones and deeper still. This is why he feels the way he does about both of them. ]
Exactly! There's no world where everyone is happy, no matter how you go 'bout it. So take your happiness but don't try to make believe it works for everyone cuz it doesn't.
Society won't accept us, so we'll destroy it until there's nothing left to do the accepting in the first place.
[ She grins at that, eyes and mouth sharp like knives. Yeah, this is why she's drawn to him, the urge to shatter a society that shuns their very existence. ]
Yeah, you're right. A single solution that makes everyone happy will never exist.
[ Even among the Vectors, she can't say that all of them wouldn't mourn the loss of humans. Yuuki, that empathetic soul, probably would struggle to accept such a reality. But how else can they live in that hostile world? ]
The world is indifferent to the feelings of others. We might as well take what we want from its remains.
[ Something about such a clear answer fills her with a joy she can't describe. ]
[ She squeezes his hand back, trying not to think too hard about how much longer this will last. How much longer she can walk with him on this island. Still, no need to let the melancholy of a possible future settle in. It's better to focus on the fun of the present, one day at a time. ]
...speaking of stopping. What do you wanna play next week? I don't think he's gonna fix the arcade so I'll have to bring something.
[ They can get back to serious talks if they want later, he's just going along with his thoughtstream. There's still whatever Shuda was doing, Lacus aside.
It's also kinda funny how he warned Lacus in a way in regards to associating with him in public, but how with her it's kinda the opposite somehow. ]
[ Well, that thoroughly distracts her for now. Her smile gets a little wry at the thought of the arcade staying in ruins, especially with how much overall time she's spent in there. ]
Hmm, surprise me? I do enjoy your taste in video games. They've all been pretty easy to pick up and play.
[ Even if everything's coming to a head, the rest of the serious talk can come later, yes. ]
[ Honestly he's not thrilled with it either, but since he knows they can still play it's fine. It's not nearly as bad as being on the run with the League and having nothing but tic tac toe or cards. ]
Sure, I'll figure out something. Anything you wanna pick then? In general.
[ He's not really sure what he's asking but he feels the need to ask it, so he does. ]
[ hdu ask him to explain his vague and confusing words!?!?!
anyway. he really isn't one to look towards the future, but he also is used to preparing for things too. pre-potting and buffing, all that good stuff. after all, rushing into things unprepared is why he lost so many things starting out. the hideout, magne, kurogiri. and from these losses hes mourned from them in his way, grown, gotten better at not taking things for granted.
he doesn't know sadness or sorrow, but he does know how to appreciate what he has. as much as he leaves the past behind, it's still shaped him. that he carries with him, like all the hands he once did. he has no need for the future but he has need for the present, in continuing to move forward and take things, hold things, even if he can't understand them and never will.
so he looks at her and smiles, one of his rare soft ones that he has no right to wear, but does anyway. ]
Anything you wanna do on the island. Or together. Or both. Really, whatever you want.
[ Something about the way that's phrased startles Moravia, metaphorically knocking her off balance. Almost non-metaphorically as well, but her sense of balance is pretty decent as long as hesitation isn't involved. Not to mention that she's still holding onto his hand, her grip a little tighter than before.
Flustered, her eyes start wandering as her mind goes into overdrive. She knows this can't last forever. There are a lot of parts they have to take care of for their own similar, yet separate goals. A lot of other souls they have to see in their own world. Like Yukinami and Hyuga for her, both awaiting her long-coming decision. She really kept them waiting long enough. And she won't forget about Yuuki and her friend, who she has also pledged her aid to. Not to mention the Vectors, all of whom could use her help to coordinate. There's so much for her to do.
She knows all this and refuses to forget them. Theta and the other colonies must fall no matter what, without any pieces to pick up after. But she can't really deny that she also feels a connection here now, something unthinkable for her weeks ago. Like a lot of things really. Something about her emotions now feel less muted. Maybe not to the point that it can be described as vibrant, but even she recognizes how lively she's been.
It troubles her, yet she can't hate it, much less let it go. ]
Then... [ She's not sure how to put this in words, but she tries with what she has. ] What if I said that even after this game—after we accomplish our goals—I'd want to walk with you like this again?
[ ...huh. he'd offered anything, but this isn't what he expected. they can both be metaphorically unbalanced, held upright by their joined hands. it's fitting, because this is how it all started, isn't it?
he has his goals that he'll do anything for, is doing anything for, not that he's ever been one to hold back in the first place. someone had asked him recently, what moravia was to him. he didn't have the answer then and he doesn't have the answer now, but he has known something for a while. she isn't a villain in the sense of the word when it comes to rankings, and she isn't an ally either; ironically their relationship isn't a working one, despite what some people on the island might think. their power dynamic should be unequal given who he is on this island and shigaraki has never forgotten that. he's the boss, he's one of the reasons they're here, repeating this cycle over and over again. but.
in that twisted way his mind works, he considers her his equal.
they understand each other, in a different way than anyone else has before. it doesn't matter to him that the connections are wired the wrong way or if what he's doing is wrong, odd, or even stupid; he'll do it anyway because it's what he wants to do.
so he considers the ask, rather than dismiss it. tries not to let the black hole that are his thoughts about the future reduce it to nothing. this he does, this he always will do for those he cares about.
he doesn't need to understand. ]
I'd say we should find a better waterfall to climb then, if I haven't destroyed 'em all. [ because that's where they've wound up as luck (hah) would have it, even if really he had no direction in mind. ]
Then again, maybe I'd wind up making more with decay? Then we'd have to go on more than one walk.
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[ Is that a better image. He hated it. ]
Mm, more like "I want this" but I only want it if it's done in a way that's not too easy or hard. Perfect or whatever.
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[ Okay, that gets another fit of giggles and a sympathetic hand squeeze. Suits never looked very fun to wear to her. ]
Ah, yeah. Things hardly work out that way even with good fortune. Gotta start greasing the wheels if you're looking for something in particular.
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[ The giggles...he won't smile or anything, but he will squeeze her hand back. ]
I think that's what was happenin' at the end 'cept it was more like greasing the wheels and watching 'em fall off. [ ...that reminds him. ] Were you actually gonna let that snake doc test the chloroform on you?
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That's one way to put it. [ Things certainly went off the rails. Especially at the end, she thinks with a small hum. ] Hmm, I would've accepted a waft for fun, but nothing more. It could've been a little hilarious if I landed on Chuuya or Joshua, but I prefer being conscious to defend myself.
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He's still holding her hand too, so this seems more playful than anything. ]
Too bad Beel ruined that all for them. They would've preferred anyone but him I'm sure, but he screwed that up for them too.
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I guess it's lucky for me, as an apparent prime suspect. [ When she gets more votes for not being involved than actually being involved. ] Funny that he gets such a reaction though. Where was that fervor last week?
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[ He goes along with the swinging since he's not entirely unfamiliar with it given Toga's everything. Not that he contributes much to it, but there's an acceptance there, the energy from it giving away to a kind of smile. ]
But she was pretty tilted this week. I guess that's what rage quitting from her looks like? [ It's said with an amused tone, but also actual thought. He's not sure what was going on with her besides a mess, which is kinda funny because he's awful. But on the other hand, he finds it a bit confusing too.
And unlike Lobelia's trial, he's not in the position to be there to poke it out of her. ]
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Seems like it. I do like that she finally started confronting me, but it seems she decided to go a few steps farther. Was she always like that?
[ Funny, she's both amused and thoughtful on the topic of Lacus. They probably spent more time playing Mario Kart than actually talking at this point, not that it bothers her much. She's not one to delve in deeply into someone like that. ]
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Well she thought that we're alike. But kinda polar opposites too? I think it was that we're both determined to make the world we wanna see. [ Which he pulls a face at because he is not making anything, just destroying, but it's easier to frame it like that.
He turns to her then, while keeping their rhythm. ]
So you tell me?
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Make the world, huh? Strange way to put it. I guess determination isn't wrong, but...hmm.
[ She actually hums out loud this time, thinking as they continue their stroll. ]
From my point of view: is it really making the world if their society is smashed so hard they can't pick up the pieces? Because that's what I'm looking for.
[ Coexistence is a pipe dream after all. If they're gone, the Vectors can live on, finally free from those who would hurt them. ]
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Exactly! There's no world where everyone is happy, no matter how you go 'bout it. So take your happiness but don't try to make believe it works for everyone cuz it doesn't.
Society won't accept us, so we'll destroy it until there's nothing left to do the accepting in the first place.
I don't make things, I destroy them.
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Yeah, you're right. A single solution that makes everyone happy will never exist.
[ Even among the Vectors, she can't say that all of them wouldn't mourn the loss of humans. Yuuki, that empathetic soul, probably would struggle to accept such a reality. But how else can they live in that hostile world? ]
The world is indifferent to the feelings of others. We might as well take what we want from its remains.
[ Something about such a clear answer fills her with a joy she can't describe. ]
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[ He doesn't need to match her grin because they're in tandem on this too, eyes as bright as the blood spread from his hands over and over again. ]
Do what you want, be free to be whatever or whoever you wanna be. That's what I want for you to have.
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[ Everything after is a bonus, right? Something about her eyes seems to sparkle in the light, a mischievous glint that matches her smile. ]
And I want the same for you too. Even if that might be strange to say in this situation.
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And I got that already, remember? [ He will continue to be like this but she knows this already. Though he doesn't stop there and squeezes her hand. ]
But bonuses are sweet so I'll take it too.
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Haha, yeah, that's true. Nothing's stopping you.
[ She squeezes his hand back, trying not to think too hard about how much longer this will last. How much longer she can walk with him on this island. Still, no need to let the melancholy of a possible future settle in. It's better to focus on the fun of the present, one day at a time. ]
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[ They can get back to serious talks if they want later, he's just going along with his thoughtstream. There's still whatever Shuda was doing, Lacus aside.
It's also kinda funny how he warned Lacus in a way in regards to associating with him in public, but how with her it's kinda the opposite somehow. ]
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Hmm, surprise me? I do enjoy your taste in video games. They've all been pretty easy to pick up and play.
[ Even if everything's coming to a head, the rest of the serious talk can come later, yes. ]
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Sure, I'll figure out something. Anything you wanna pick then? In general.
[ He's not really sure what he's asking but he feels the need to ask it, so he does. ]
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Action might be too general, so...maybe fighting or beat 'em ups? I've been trying a few lately.
[ She's really not too picky about the choice, but she appreciates the thought anyway. ]
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[ To emphasize, he'll swing their hands every so slightly. ]
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[ She turns to look him in the eyes, her own widening in surprise. Almost belatedly, she returns the motion, blinking all the while. ]
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anyway. he really isn't one to look towards the future, but he also is used to preparing for things too. pre-potting and buffing, all that good stuff. after all, rushing into things unprepared is why he lost so many things starting out. the hideout, magne, kurogiri. and from these losses hes mourned from them in his way, grown, gotten better at not taking things for granted.
he doesn't know sadness or sorrow, but he does know how to appreciate what he has. as much as he leaves the past behind, it's still shaped him. that he carries with him, like all the hands he once did. he has no need for the future but he has need for the present, in continuing to move forward and take things, hold things, even if he can't understand them and never will.
so he looks at her and smiles, one of his rare soft ones that he has no right to wear, but does anyway. ]
Anything you wanna do on the island. Or together. Or both. Really, whatever you want.
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Flustered, her eyes start wandering as her mind goes into overdrive. She knows this can't last forever. There are a lot of parts they have to take care of for their own similar, yet separate goals. A lot of other souls they have to see in their own world. Like Yukinami and Hyuga for her, both awaiting her long-coming decision. She really kept them waiting long enough. And she won't forget about Yuuki and her friend, who she has also pledged her aid to. Not to mention the Vectors, all of whom could use her help to coordinate. There's so much for her to do.
She knows all this and refuses to forget them. Theta and the other colonies must fall no matter what, without any pieces to pick up after. But she can't really deny that she also feels a connection here now, something unthinkable for her weeks ago. Like a lot of things really. Something about her emotions now feel less muted. Maybe not to the point that it can be described as vibrant, but even she recognizes how lively she's been.
It troubles her, yet she can't hate it, much less let it go. ]
Then... [ She's not sure how to put this in words, but she tries with what she has. ] What if I said that even after this game—after we accomplish our goals—I'd want to walk with you like this again?
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he has his goals that he'll do anything for, is doing anything for, not that he's ever been one to hold back in the first place. someone had asked him recently, what moravia was to him. he didn't have the answer then and he doesn't have the answer now, but he has known something for a while. she isn't a villain in the sense of the word when it comes to rankings, and she isn't an ally either; ironically their relationship isn't a working one, despite what some people on the island might think. their power dynamic should be unequal given who he is on this island and shigaraki has never forgotten that. he's the boss, he's one of the reasons they're here, repeating this cycle over and over again. but.
in that twisted way his mind works, he considers her his equal.
they understand each other, in a different way than anyone else has before. it doesn't matter to him that the connections are wired the wrong way or if what he's doing is wrong, odd, or even stupid; he'll do it anyway because it's what he wants to do.
so he considers the ask, rather than dismiss it. tries not to let the black hole that are his thoughts about the future reduce it to nothing. this he does, this he always will do for those he cares about.
he doesn't need to understand. ]
I'd say we should find a better waterfall to climb then, if I haven't destroyed 'em all. [ because that's where they've wound up as luck (hah) would have it, even if really he had no direction in mind. ]
Then again, maybe I'd wind up making more with decay? Then we'd have to go on more than one walk.
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