Rapt0r & Lacus

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[idologue]

[ This is where a younger Lacus might have defaulted straight to asking about the games, but current Lacus has just got to make a detour. ]

Do you think all emotions are just a product of society and don't exist independently?

[rapt0r]

kinda?

but u cant miss something that was crushed out of u

[idologue]

[ Well, that is just an upsetting thing to say. ]

I think you'd be able to, given time?

But

Looking backwards can keep you from moving on, so it can be helpful to avoid it.

[rapt0r]

no

and i dont care about it now anyway. im not avoiding anything 🙂

[idologue]

Hmmm

You're avoiding the rest of the group, aren't you?

[rapt0r]

nah

that implies fear or something yeah? theres nothing im afraid of

[idologue]

Even though you've given everyone here incentive to kill you? Impressive!

[rapt0r]

its the same way back home

though half of em would rather jail me instead cuz that's "better" lolol

[idologue]

[ Every bit of information this guy drops about himself is more concerning than the last! It's going great!! ]

Did you do something they are afraid of? Or is a matter of what you are, rather than who you are?

[rapt0r]

id say its both

but the "who" kinda gets lost in the wanting to destroy everything 💥💥💥

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[idologue]

[ Well. On the one hand, she was right that talking to Rapt0r is proving interesting. On the other hand, she's ready for things to become slightly less concerning now, please and thanks. ]

Destroy everything? Why?

1/2

[rapt0r]

i used to say cuz i hate everything

but

its what i want to do. it feels good watching everything crumble to dust

[rapt0r]

if u want the "idealogical" version ask me over voice

but the TLDR is pretty spot on

[idologue]

[ This feels like a blast from the past in the most unsettling way possible. Her sorta-boyfriend was deeply traumatized by a destructive nihilist once and she's spent a lot of time watching it eat him up inside.

Yet, or maybe because of it, she is curious about the ideological explanation. ]

You prefer voice calls? So do I, actually. Let's get to it, then.

[ And thus, she hits the call button. ]

[rapt0r]

[ The pick-up is instantaneous, for obvious reasons. The voice that comes through is a bit clearer than it was from the not!kitty bot, but the quality still isn't fantastic. ]

I don't really care either way. But no one has time to type out anything other than quick commands during raids.

But first, why do you want to know?

[idologue]

[ Is he playing a raid right now...? Given the topic of the conversation, she doesn't dwell on the question. She barely knows what a raid is in the first place... ]

I want to understand your perspective. Even if I am going to wind up disagreeing with you, it's pointless to dismiss someone based on a simplification.

The world isn't that conveniently sorted into categories.

[rapt0r]

Where I come from is, or at least it tries to be. That's part of why I want it gone.

[idologue]

[ There's a brief moment of silence on Lacus' end of the line as she takes that in. ]

I knew a man who hated the world for having given birth to him. He saw his own existence as proof that mankind was destined for endless violence, and he was going to prove it with his own hands by escalating conflict and killing all.

Is that the kind of end you also wish for? A void with nothing left?

[rapt0r]

I'd say we'd get along, but I've gone through enough "partners" that I know it usually requires one of us beating the other one.

[ A pause, perhaps a bit languid. ]

I wouldn't mind that, but that's not really what I'm going for either. The destruction itself is what's fun. [ Even with the garbled quality, this inflection is clear. ]

And I want to leave whatever my allies want to keep too.

[idologue]

[ Hedonism over nihilism, then... Lacus can't say she thinks that's better but it's an important piece for being able to understand the person on the other end of the line. ]

What's Ho-Oh, then? A partner or an ally?

[rapt0r]

You really couldn't tell?

[idologue]

Wouldn't it be rude to make assumptions?

[rapt0r]

So?

[ Being rude is fine! ]

He's a partner. The kind who wants to call all the shots.

[idologue]

[ She's an image-conscious young lady!! ...... who also likes to hear things straight from the horse's mouth, which was the bigger issue. ]

He does have a very over-serious personality, doesn't he?

[ The jury is very very much out on whom of them she likes better, but this much agreement is easy to give from the heart. ]

Does he also like to put people into neat categories?

[rapt0r]

That's a nice way to say he has a stick up his ass.

[ With a few exceptions, Rapt0r's words don't carry much weight. And though this isn't nearly as heavy as the weight of the word fun, there's just a glimmer of sharpness about it. Or maybe it's just the sound quality fritzing now and again. ]

He does. His categories are different from society though, at least the above ground kind. And anyone who actually lives in this era.