[ While it is true that Merlin helped facilitate the magic to conjure sharing of certain memories, he certainly didn't have control over who walked into which of his own. Not to mention, there were some of his that wound up being filtered across to everyone else.
He never intended to even so much as tell anyone that sort of thing here. But, Zelkov knew of the memory, and now he must ha...
...Actually, he hadn't shown an angry or disappointed reaction to him, despite seeing what he had. From that tone, Merlin feels encouraged to try to be honest. ]
...I'm not human. Of course, you know that. Half-human, half-incubus, to be exact.
Given my inhuman nature, since I can take emotions in as energy, that's the sort of thing I had thought. Whatever emotion I seemed to express would be left over from what I'd taken in from others. That it never really truly existed within me.
But, recently, through all of this—through all of the people I met, including you, I realized that I might have been wrong. So, all I had originally distanced myself from, I wanted to try reaching for instead.
Including everything involving what I said to you. Haha...then again, you heard my own words, in my own memory. If you believe what I'm saying now to sound ridiculous, I won't blame you.
[ Does he even believe himself? This is one of the reasons why he usually doesn't bother getting close to anyone, truthfully. But, every time he thinks about it, he has an urge to stubbornly and persistently not to take back his choices. And sometimes, he barely understands that, when running away was so much easier. ]
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He never intended to even so much as tell anyone that sort of thing here. But, Zelkov knew of the memory, and now he must ha...
...Actually, he hadn't shown an angry or disappointed reaction to him, despite seeing what he had. From that tone, Merlin feels encouraged to try to be honest. ]
...I'm not human. Of course, you know that. Half-human, half-incubus, to be exact.
Given my inhuman nature, since I can take emotions in as energy, that's the sort of thing I had thought. Whatever emotion I seemed to express would be left over from what I'd taken in from others. That it never really truly existed within me.
But, recently, through all of this—through all of the people I met, including you, I realized that I might have been wrong. So, all I had originally distanced myself from, I wanted to try reaching for instead.
Including everything involving what I said to you. Haha...then again, you heard my own words, in my own memory. If you believe what I'm saying now to sound ridiculous, I won't blame you.
[ Does he even believe himself? This is one of the reasons why he usually doesn't bother getting close to anyone, truthfully. But, every time he thinks about it, he has an urge to stubbornly and persistently not to take back his choices. And sometimes, he barely understands that, when running away was so much easier. ]